I just can't.

You know, getting texts from you doesn't make me happy anymore. They don't make me smile. Your sweet lies don't fool me anymore. I am just honestly tired of you making me feel so horribly alone. Please. Stop.

So.

I still get butterflies when I hear his name. But, I also feel sad and angry.
And this other guy, is very practical. We would go well together.
I don't think he likes me, however. So it's best not to think of him like that.

I just really don't understand.

Why do I always mess things up?
Especially when I'm trying to fix them...

If We're Telling the Truth by Blue Skies

I went away just for awhile so I could think about your smile,
sometimes I need to.
I burned my shoulders in the sun.
I didn't notice anyone, they were all see-through.
I wrote songs no one else would hear
because you made it very clear they weren't to know.
But you remembered being high,
I can see it in your eyes, they still glow.
Say you never wanna hold my hand,
I'll understand and I'll believe you.
But tell me that you want to but you won't
because you don't think they'd permit you to commit,
now just admit that that's just shit we've gotta get through.
You told me once and only then
you didn't think we could be friends and nothin' more.
But now that's everything you need
and somehow I just cannot see what this change is for.
And if we're telling the truth, I don't think it comes from you.
So come let's leave it all behind,
just tell me what's on your mind. We'll make a pact,
that if anybody tries to make us say our goodbyes we'll never crack.
Say you never wanna hold my hand,
I'll understand and I'll believe you.
But tell me that you want to but you won't
because you don't think they'd permit you to commit,
now just admit that that's just shit we've gotta get through.
And if we're telling the truth, I think I'm in love with you.

Hello.

My real name is not Evelette. But that's what I'll go by.