Make it stop.

No, I don't want to go hang out with you.
No, I don't want to go anywhere.
No, I don't want to do anything.
No, I don't want to talk to you.

I really just want everyone to drop off the face of the earth right now. How am I expected to go to school and try to act normal and try not to be obsessive over him when all I want to do is lie in bed and cry? How am I supposed to not talk to him when he's the only one I want to talk to? How am I supposed to not be hurt when he barely talks to me?

What the fuck am I supposed to do to stop feeling so miserable?
I just want him to be here. I just want a fucking hug. I just want someone to fucking care about me without expecting anything in return. I don't want them to want things from me. To want me to act a certain way or to not want me to be sad. I just wanna feel how I feel and not have to change and I wanna be sad and lonely and I want him and I wanna cry. I want a hug. I want him to make me happy instead of me trying to get him to make me happy.